|Me at 18, holding a book in front of my|
"huge" stomach. If only I could travel
in time and have a good talk with that girl!
There aren't many photos of myself anywhere because I was convinced that I was fat and unattractive and hid from the camera. Looking at these photos now, I would love to have that body again (and I think I am on my way there). Not only that, aside from the bad perm, I was far from ugly!
|Me at my peak weight, probably well |
over 300 lbs., on my wedding day in 2006
I wasn't chosen for the reality program, which I now feel was for the best. Soon after I was rejected for the program, I started hearing about the new Ideal Protein program that a local chiropractor's office was offering. A relative talked me into going to a seminar about the program and I said I would go.
So here I am, three weeks later, showing amazing progress. I don't think it would be working as well as it is if I hadn't changed my mind about myself. In my old mind I was fat, even back in the days when I wasn't. Words have power and self-talk is just as strong as prayer. If I call myself fat, my sub-conscious mind hears it, believes it and the words become self-fulfilled prophecy.
I have also made a conscious decision to commit myself completely to this diet. While I am on this diet I will not complain about the restrictions. I will approach each day in the program with enthusiasm and belief. I see this program as a change in lifestyle and an opportunity to re-educate myself about eating, not as another fad diet. I will believe in myself and in Ideal Protein.
Without the belief and proper attitude, this will just be another failed diet. With the old thought patterns I might have lost some weight, but I doubt I would be willing to stick to the program or will be able to keep the weight off once I loose it. This is the last diet I will ever go on because this diet is going to work - I refuse to accept any other outcome.
So I've changed the way I look at myself and the way I look at my diet - and the outcome this time around is already very different than it has been in the past.